My Little Destin Gaia

Destin's Stroller

I want everything special for my Little angel.
I want to give my daughter everything I could possibly offer.
I want the best for my Little Destin.

Here's her new ride given by Grandpa Phil.

Destin's Baby Shower

I can't thank God enough for giving friends who truly love and care for me and my Baby Destin.

Happiness

I have been gabbling about happiness since yesterday, if it should matter in this life or not.But it does matter, as a matter of fact every human being longs to be happy. Happiness. Such a beautiful word and my conquest to finding such a sublime beauty has ended the moment I've learned that I am pregnant although it did not occur to me automatically that the baby is a blessing, a precious gift from God. 

It took me awhile to accept that I am carrying a baby inside my womb, that there's a life inside the inner reaches of my body. The day she started kicking was the day I have convinced myself that I am going to be a mother. It's a beauty, it's the kind of happiness that is so hard to find in this world yet it's in my hands now, I am groping it and I am not letting it go.

What is happiness? I define happiness as something you never expect to have, some little things you thought would not give you pleasure, those little kicks from my little Destin. Happiness is knowing who you really are, knowing what you want in this life. Now I am sure of what I want, I want to be a Mother.

Destin Gaia

God gave me a baby girl. Her name is Destin Gaia. Destin is a french word for fate or destiny. Gaia means earth. She was the mother goddess who presided over the earth. She was the mate of Uranus and the mother of the Titans and the Cyclopes. Destin just like the story of how me and her Dad made this Destiny. And yes I firmly believe that we make our own destiny. Regrets? Why would I?

When I was in college I've always wanted to name my baby "Earth" but I just can't let her suffer the ridicule for having such an awful name. So I would have to name her Destin Gaia. Gaia also depicts a very strong personality, which is going to be what my baby should become.

Motherhood means change

People are afraid of change. And I am not an exception to that. I am incredibly afraid of change. I discovered it while trying to prepare for work. Everything is a routine. I wake up 4:30, do a quick shower, eat the meal I had prepared last night, brush my teeth, and then wear something nice and walk until I get to ride a jeepney (inexpensive public transportation only in the Philippines.) I never change any of those routines,because if I will, I will be coming late for work. A workmate also noticed something on my computer, I had never been comfortable having a mishmash of the things I use for work. It's not Obsessive-Compulsive disorder but I just don't want to change what I am used to working with. I don't want to confuse myself. I don't want to change anything. I hate change. 

Now I am trudging a new path. It's the path to Motherhood. And this is more than change. It's scary yet my stomach is getting bigger and I know I am going to be a mother pretty soon. I am 24, just the right age to marry, just the right age to become a mother yet my system says I am not ready for this big change yet. But I don't want my baby to think I am not capable to be a mother, I want him to think he's loved and he will be loved. 

I refused those little changes, but here I am facing the most remarkable change a woman can ever experience. My mother died five years ago, Grandma died a year ago. Where will I seek guidance and advice? So to the mothers out there, you might want to drop your advice here.

Baby Destin is a boy

In three days, I am going to see my baby. I've been so excited since the last month to check my baby's gender but due to my exiguous resources, I wasn't able to have the pelvic ultrasound and so I asked my OB-GYNE to have it scheduled this Saturday. Hey Destin? Are you a girl? are you a boy? Mommy wants to know.

I wanted to have a baby boy, now for what reason? I've always wanted to have an older brother someone who could fight for me, someone who could stop the bullies from ridiculing me. So, I just wished that God will grant me this one wish of mine. But I can feel it, Destin is a boy, a healthy baby boy, a handsome baby boy. 

I wanted a baby boy, but I know God has his own plans. If it's a girl, if it's a boy. It would still be the greatest gift I will be receiving this February.

Thank You Lord.

I love you Baby Destin.

 

My Baby's Development (DESTIN @ 24 weeks)

Your fetus weighs more than 1.3 pounds/ 600 grams. Though she still has little body fat and her skin is thin and fragile, she's now well-proportioned. Her brain is growing rapidly, and she is starting to fill the space in your uterus. From crown to heel she could measure 11.8 inches/ 30 centimeters. If you went into labor
at this time, however, many obstetricians and doctors would make every effort to halt the progress of premature labor to enable your baby to continue maturing. 

You may be noticing faint, red or brown streaks known as striae or stretch marks on your abdomen, hips and breasts. While creams won't erase them, wearing a supportive bra may help prevent or minimize them on your breasts. They are very common at this stage of the pregnancy - about 90 per cent of women get them. After you've given birth, the reddish or brown pigmentation in the stretch marks gradually fades, and the streaks become lighter than the surrounding skin.