Happiness

I have been gabbling about happiness since yesterday, if it should matter in this life or not.But it does matter, as a matter of fact every human being longs to be happy. Happiness. Such a beautiful word and my conquest to finding such a sublime beauty has ended the moment I've learned that I am pregnant although it did not occur to me automatically that the baby is a blessing, a precious gift from God. 

It took me awhile to accept that I am carrying a baby inside my womb, that there's a life inside the inner reaches of my body. The day she started kicking was the day I have convinced myself that I am going to be a mother. It's a beauty, it's the kind of happiness that is so hard to find in this world yet it's in my hands now, I am groping it and I am not letting it go.

What is happiness? I define happiness as something you never expect to have, some little things you thought would not give you pleasure, those little kicks from my little Destin. Happiness is knowing who you really are, knowing what you want in this life. Now I am sure of what I want, I want to be a Mother.