I can hear the throbbing of my heart, faster than before and then it stopped and then it trembled again. In piano lessons they call it "staccato". I can hear the screams inside me. I can hear the cries reverberating in my room. My shirt has been drenched with so much liquid poured by the rain. I got up to drink water and then I saw that dagger lying next to the glass and then he said, "Use me to stop your misery." And then I asked myself, "Where else will I seek for help?" and then I heard a very familiar voice from afar saying, "My child, Use me to stop your misery."
Lord, what have I done to deserve all these things? Am I not good enough? I have loved my family so much so much that it hurts. I have given them all the love I could possibly give. But then receive nothing but judgments and harsh words. Lord, give me strength that I may continue to walk on the path you reserve for me.
I have realized one thing today, the closest people in our lives are the ones that can hurt us most.
Lord, what have I done to deserve all these things? Am I not good enough? I have loved my family so much so much that it hurts. I have given them all the love I could possibly give. But then receive nothing but judgments and harsh words. Lord, give me strength that I may continue to walk on the path you reserve for me.
I have realized one thing today, the closest people in our lives are the ones that can hurt us most.
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