Dear Drew

I don't know where to start
Don't know what to write.
if sorry won't make things better,
I don't know what else I can do.
if I have hurt you so bad, my apology.
I know you are tired of hearing my apologies but that's all I can say.
I know I am lame and can't do anything
and can't give you anything
so where else are we heading?

Drew, you are such an amazing person
and in my life, you made my heart beat again.
I know it sounds "mushy" but what else will I hide from you?
I may not be able to give any effort, but damn, I wanted to do it.
it's just that, you are not my boyfriend.
Yes, you are special. But am I special to you?
Do you see my point?

If the call you made earlier
means goodbye forever,
I shall not stop you
but my heart shall long for you.